West Carribou Alone

21 August 2007, Day Two

West Caribou Island


There are ghosts at this shelter as well, but I am happier here than at Rock Harbor. Rock is a clash of worlds: lodge guests at $250 per day; yachts that cost more than the net worth of me plus my four closest friends; hikers just off the trail.

The fog settles and light dims. As the world quiets I realize that no one will be on this island tonight but me. There are no human sounds but mine. These are all the sounds I hear: the penetrating call of the loon and surf on the Superior beach. I can tell by the sound that the surf is calmer than at mid-day. I hear the scratch of the pen on this paper and the irregular clang of the bell buoy in Middle Island Passage. I hear the slow drip of water from the shelter roof onto the line of rock where the soil is worn and occasionally a pine cone falls on the roof. That is all. I could be the only person on the planet.

The brilliance of this trip is beginning to seep in. For 21 days I have escaped the clutches of civilization and its slave-master time. I've thrown out my planned itinerary. It served its purpose of allowing me the fantasy of being here when my body was still in Austin. Here my movement will be shaped by wind and wave, by rock and desire.

Stoll Trail


20 August 2007, Day One

Stoll Trail

My shadow grows long and still I press past the time I feel that I should prudently turn back. I am driven, like Heathcliff, by the hope of encountering ghosts of my beloveds. In my case the ghosts are two twelve-year-old girls dressed in bandanas and giddy laughter. We stopped to swim off Scoville Point on a warm July afternoon seven years ago.

Today is late August and I sense the difference in the light. The water is a deeper blue. Wind is strong out of the east, unimaginably flung by the power of Hurricane Dean, 2000 miles and half a continent south of here. I’ve not reached the place I’d hoped to and yet I am turning back. This trip is filled with goodbye and the awareness of death – knowing that I could live 40 more years and not step foot again on this trail that I love.

First Day


20 August 2007, Day One

Rock Harbor

I am here. Many emotions run through me, primarily fear. I’ve only cried once; it is the children. I was talking to a man waiting for the Queen with his daughter, about 14 years old, and two sons, maybe 10 and 12 years old. They have finished a backpacking trip. I explain something to them that, in this moment, they know better than me: how wonderful it is to be on the Island with children. And also how I miss mine, now grown and on their own, the sadness I feel to be here without Geneva.

My back is tender from lifting my boat twice today, to and part way from the ferry. I am proud to carry it on my shoulder and want to look strong. I reject Don Watson's offer to help until he says "Save your back."

Rock Harbor is quiet. It is late in the season. Gas prices keep motor boats on a distant shore. That’s a good thing, but the feeling here is eerie. The sky is blue through a light layer of clouds. Again I wonder if the season is too late for me.

Everyone arriving from the ferry listens to a short lecture on doing our part to keep this Island wild. Our ranger today is Karena. On an Island dominated by youthful testosterone Karena’s graying hair lifts my spirits. When I step into the Visitor’s Center to pick up the magic paper in a zip-lock plastic bag, that will claim my space on the island for the next 21 days, Ranger Karena checks me in. “How many people in your party?”

“One.”

“Solo-it’s the only way to really get to know the Island.” A thousand times during the next 21 days, times of both elation and self-doubt, I am going to replay these three sentences through my mind. I am not crazy for being here alone.

The Night Before

19 August 2007

King Copper Motel

Copper Harbor, Michigan

Why solo? Why the whole trip? In this moment I don’t know. The breezes are fresh and the ferry is delayed in her return. The sun is bright but not warm. I’ve noticed color in the leaves of the trees beside the narrow road from Houghton to this tip of the Keneewa Pennisula. Have I missed weather warm and stable enough to allow me to do this trip? People seem wider here, carrying an extra layer of fat. It may be too late for a trip to the island with my thin Texas blood. A dump in this wind would be cold and dangerous.

I am filled with doubts and tempted to give up the trip before I’ve begun. In my mind I review my equipment. A couple of my systems are not redundant. I’ve only one bottle of cooking fuel. Should I spill it, the island itself must become my backup. I could cook with wood. And I’ve only one fountain pen and bottle of ink.

Tonight I will carry my gear from the car into my room, review and repack. My ears ring with the stillness of this small community after three days of driving. My feet barely connect with the earth.

Where it All Began

This trip began eighteen years ago, on the sofa with my baby daughter, Geneva, in my arms and a paddling book in my hands. Through the stories I read, I crossed the Atlantic, circumnavigated the Big Island of Hawaii, floated the Yukon, or poked into Baffin Bay between Beluga whales and ice floes in a human-powered boat. When she turned one, I bought an Aquaterra Gemini – an open cockpit, double-seated, beamy plastic boat that weighed about 95 pounds. With fierce determination, I figured how to leverage an end of that boat to the roof of my Isuzu sedan and then twist and rock it into kayak saddles. Eamon sat in the front seat and Geneva between my legs.

Twice a week I’d gather the boat, life jackets, paddles, sponge, water, a plastic container with a new-age maple-syrup-sweetened version of cheerios, raisins, and walnuts, a mylar emergency blanket to tuck around us if things got cold, rainy, or windy. The list of essentials lived on the refrigerator door. I could be on my way with two children, completely rigged and that boat strapped to the car in 15 minutes.

It had to be that fast to fit into a life that included childcare, housework, my PhD research, consulting jobs to help ends meet, and political work to pass a citizen’s referendum to limit development in the Barton Springs watershed. I can’t tell you how I fit all of that into one life. But the list of paddling necessities on the refrigerator door and six hours on the lake every week was what kept me sane.

In 1991 David, Eamon, Geneva, and I made our first Isle Royale trip in late June. The Ferry Queen out of Copper Harbor dropped us at Rock. We made the short portage to Tobin Harbor, paddled across and began an attempt at the Duncan Portage.

What were we thinking? Well, the map says the portage is just a mile. How hard could it be? Hard! The trail climbs to the Greenstone Ridge, 178 feet above the level of the lake. We had two plastic seakayaks that weighed 75 and 95 pounds bare. In addition to the boats and the gear, Geneva, just two years old, also had to be carried. I didn’t get far with a baby on one hip and a kayak on the other shoulder.

We saw the biggest bull moose I’ve ever seen on the island from the boardwalk on that portage. He was about 20 feet in front of us with a rack that looked 10 feet from tip to tip. David still talks about how nonplussed Geneva and Eamon were at the sight of his magnificence. At two and six years old, you see a lot of things you’ve never seen before. You don’t know that a person might live their whole life and never see that again.

The afternoon faded and it became clear that we weren’t going to reach the Duncan Narrows Campground. We gave up the portage and turned back. Too tired to make it back to Rock, we spent the night illegally camped on a rock outcrop on the shore of Hidden Lake. In the dim light of a setting sun and gathering clouds, we watched a baby moose nursing Mom in the shallow water at the lake’s edge. It rained during the night, filling the rock bowl in which we’d pitched our tent. We woke to find the contents of the tent floating in 3 inches of water!

Never mind the water, we hiked toward Lookout Louise and saw a patch of 30 to 50 magenta lady slippers along the trail. I’d only ever seen 2 or 3 of these orchids and never more than one precious flower at a time. To see them again is the one reason that I’d come back to the Island in June, with its mosquitoes and black flies and before the thimbleberries ripen.

Along with the rain came a storm. We easily paddled the sheltered water of Tobin Harbor, but the waves in Rock were more than our vulnerable and inexperienced crew were going to take on. We spent the next 2 days gazing out across the surf in Rock Harbor from the ferry dock.

Finally the storm broke, the waves calmed, and we paddled a short hop to the Three-Mile Campground. As the sun came out, we sat on the rocks 20 feet above the water. Eamon and Geneva gathered long grass stems and wove them into my hair to create an odd headdress.

The same water that kept us stuck at the ferry dock for 2 days was now glass; so calm and inviting that we risked crossing the harbor and paddling on the Superior side of Mott Island. Any part of the Island with a direct lake exposure has a particular magic. On one side rock towers high above our heads and on the other there is just water to the distant horizon. Beneath my hull I can see the lake bottom 60 feet below.

Rock on these exposed shores carries a special energy that seems to me to be a residual of fierce winter storms, ice and pounding waves. I’ve never seen the Lake under those conditions except in my dreams. But I look at the towering cliffs, the deep and narrow cuts and I can feel in my skin the power of that Lake in winter.

It was just one afternoon, sitting on a rock, paddling that outer side of Mott. But an afternoon is plenty of time to fall in love. Never again would spring weather come to Austin without my dreaming of loading the boats and heading to the far north end of IH 35 and then a bit farther to the ferry dock. And never again would summer weather begin to turn to fall without my wishing that I could squeeze in just one more trip to the island before she is locked in winter’s ice.

Island Fairy Godmothers


Ranger Karena: you floated my boat twice over. I might not have done an early evening rounding of Blake Point without your encouragement. It was the best paddle of the 21 days.

Captain Mike of the Voyager II: thank you for delivering my precious packages and for sharing weather reports and weather concerns. Good luck with October!

Don Watson, professional trip guide, thank you for gently-given advice. I took your admonition to protect my rudder to heart and lifted it at the barest suggestion of shallow rock. You’d be proud of me.

Norm, Mark, and son, thanks for conversation, for a shared sunset from Carribou Island dock and Greenland paddle inspiration.

John, I loved our quiet evening conversation on the rocks above Chippewa Harbor and particularly your understanding and sharing of the solo traveler’s desire for silence.

Ginny Danfelt of Hovland, MN, thanks for posting my letters, even providing the stamps, and for the phone call with news of my trip to Lisa.

Malone Bay Ranger Clif, thanks for an early morning weather report and solicitous care squarely in the tradition of retired Michigan State Troopers.

Joseph, I am grateful to have seen how far a man can go, starting from the Ysleta barrio. Thank you for Spanish, for honesty. The bell rings only when things get interesting.

Larry and Dick: for one of the most interesting conversations regarding racism on the island. I’ve no doubt that you meet interesting people wherever you go!

Tracy and Derik: blessings for your good hearts and your strong legs. Thanks for conversation and wild apples.

Nile and Patti, for your love of each other and for our shared love of the island.

Jonathon and Bart, you were gentlemen and never once mentioned paddling around a point and out of the fog to find me wearing only my shirt and spray skirt.

Jim, thanks for perfect silence at the Duncan Narrows, for the freshest fish fillet I’ve ever eaten, for taking an end of my boat on the Duncan Bay Portage, and especially for your love, your care, and the rollicking conversation as we trudged back and forth with boats and gear. Thanks, also, for having more stuff than me!

Island Return

14 September 2007

Dear Friends and Allies:

I have completed both the paddling, and the more dangerous 1,700 drive home to Austin, Texas and am safe at home. Unpacking and the transition are my challenges now.

My big lessons from 21 days with the wild are to go slow, pay attention, and wait for the moment. Lessons learned through the practice of a hundred rituals of gathering water, lighting fire, making food, creating shelter, and then breaking it all down again and stowing it in the boat. Where a single forgetful or inattentive moment easily results in the loss of a vital supply or piece of equipment without backup.

I practiced these lessons in a thousand footfalls on rocky trails and wet, slick rocks getting into and out of my boat. One twist of an ankle would leave me in pain and far from help.

But most particularly I paddled the lessons in thousands of strokes. Pull too hard and I've a shoulder injury. A misjudgment of wind and wave conditions at a point, fail to notice that particularly big waves curl over a hidden rock and I find myself in paddling conditions to challenge my skills. Even in a calm sea, an overeager or misguided pull on the blades could tip me into the icy water with a risk of hypothermia and death.

The possibility of capsize without recovery was my constant companion. Carlos Casteneda referred to keeping Death on your left shoulder. I embarked on the journey neither wanting nor expecting to die. But I was willing to risk it and when I anti that poker chip into the game, it is a good one regardless of the outcome.

I offer thanks from the very depths of my heart and a deep bow to all of you who kept me in your thoughts and prayers, to those of you who sent letters, Mary Oliver poetry, cookies, dried beef jerky, noodle dinners, instant mashed potatoes, a bees wax candle, snack bars, a bag of cookie crumbs (Isle Royale tradition - we eat them with a spoon!). And 3 cotton swabs, which gave me both a laugh and provoked much thought. For what purpose and why 3?

I also offer humble gratitude to all of you who answered phones, wrote e-mail, planted gardens, sat on cushions, and generally kept this precious world going as best we can.

With much love,
Juniper Lauren

P.S. I won't send any more e-mails about the trip. You are kind to read this much. I will be posting excerpts from my diary on this blog: IsleRoyaleJourney.blogspot.com. Any of you with additional capacity for nerdy trip details, nature narrative, or philosophical ramblings please check it out. I'll get some photos up.

I hope that fellow journeyers might add their contributions to the blog. Journeyers is a broad term and an island is a state of mind. JL